Sunday, December 27, 2009

"Endure" Week 37 year long project

These are dark days for me, my friends. I have lost two of my dearest companions for now, and another battles a terrible disease. I am fighting to keep myself strong.

In my thoughts about how to survive this, I remember a card a friend sent, years ago to me during another dark time. It meant a lot to me, and I still have it. I decided to use it's words as this weeks inspiration, because I will have to wait for days of happiness. My world seems to have no color and I strive to remember there could be color again if I wait. I will wait and watch and work. I will keep myself busy and when there is time, I will try to paint beautiful paintings to prove that my heart still beats.


peggy gatto said...

I can only say that I will think of you each day I begin to do art and know that you are there creating also.
Take care julie

Angelina's Trinkets said...

Dear Julie,

Your openess about your loss is truly a beautiful sharing of your friendship and love for your companions. This seems to be the time of year when disheartening things happen to so many wonderful people. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

I have had some personal struggles this month as well and find the hurtles I have had to jump over are nearly too much. The last few days have finally caught up with me and left me exhausted to the core.

I look forward to more artful days and have decided to return to an "emotions" art journal and work through these feelings of sadness that are holding me back so that I can move forward with a bright New Year. This kind of journaling has helped tremendously in the past and I am sure it will be useful to me at this time too.

Know that your internet friends are here not only as we share in our artistic and creative adventures, but as we give hope and cheer when we are feeling sad and having a tough time.

Wishing you beautiful blessings as you work through these difficult days.


miz katie said...

I'm so sorry to read this, Julie. My thoughts are with you.

Diana VanGorden said...


2009 has been a very rough year for me as well. I won't go into detail but let's just say I am ready to kick it in the rear out the back door and welcome a fresh, shiny 2010 in! I hope things improve for you in 2010!

jenny elkins said...

I wanted you to know I stopped are in my thoughts. jenny

elsiee said...

I am inspired by your honesty and willingness to carry on creatively - going though a dark period myself and have shut down most connections to the outside world... maybe will consider your example as a possible alternative for me...

❦TattingChic said...

That is a lovely saying! Thank you for sharing it with me! (((Hugs))) to you! So sorry to hear it is a challenging time for you!
~TattingChic ♥

Micki said...

I'm sorry to hear you are going through this hard time, my thoughts are with you.
Micki x

Janine said...

So sorry to hear you are going through this Julie! Waiting is so hard to do. I hope you do try to paint, it is good for the soul at least with my experience it is! Hang in there!

Renee said...

Darling Julie you are in my prayers.

There will be colour again and I hope that the companions that have been lost are only lost for a short time.

Love you dear friend.

Love Renee xoxoxo

Campbell Jane said...

I'm so sorry for your loss and the troubles you are going through. This year has been hard for lots of people. I will keep you in my prayers. Paint paint paint those beautiful pieces!
Many blessings

Julie Fillo said...

Thank you, Peggy and Angelina, it means a lot to know you are creating and thinking of me.

Katie and Diana, Thank you, yes lets kick 2009 to the curb, although I have little hope that 2010 will be much better.
Jenny, Thank you.
Elsiee, nice to think I could inspire anyone right now.
Tatting Chic, you are so faithful.
Micki and Janine, thank you so much.

Renee, I have little hope that anything will be better soon. But I will try to think so.

Jane, Every painting in 2010 will be a song of love for my lost ones.

Thank you, my friends.

Evangelina Prieto said...

It is always a delight to visiting your virtual home, is full of beauty and positive energy ...
Have a 2010 full of angels and light.
Big hug...

Renee said...

Any light yet darling?


femminismo said...

I hope you find that endurance is the best testament (of faith in life and living) to remember your friends by. If I were to leave this earth tomorrow, I would want my loved ones to do their best to find joy even in my absence. - Jeanne

lk moonwood said...

Whether in color or black and white, your artwork is lovely and truly reflects your compassionate heart. I hope that these dark days will pass quickly for you.

xoxo lulu

annette emms said...

I am sad that your brave heart is heavy.
May many blessings come your way.x

WingingIt said...

you are being held in my heart today....i am sorry for your is never easy....your color will return..when it is love to you